Bless The Lord Oh My Soul
Photo Credit: The Principal
This week has been a tad difficult. It’s only Tuesday people….
Not entirely sure why I’m having a hard time.
It could be my hormones. Yes, I went there. I am in peri-menopause….read totally off kilter!
It could be hormonal teens. A Freshman and a Junior this year.
It’s September. Which means the 2 year anniversary of Mom and Jonny.
The Principal and I are trying to get away this weekend for our anniversary. He was going to surprise me, but figured out that might not work. So I went to planning.
Well. One activity has fallen through as well as deciding dinner at The Melting Pot probably wasn’t a prudent use of funds.
Then I went to confirm our hotel reservation for Saturday and add Friday since our original Friday plans fell through.
I made the reservation for this LAST Saturday. As in it’s passed and we lost the hotel points. We have enough for more nights, I just feel like such a failure when I make careless mistakes like that.
I decided to pull myself up by my boot straps and turn on some worship. I am gonna do some cleaning since the kids are at rehearsal.
What is on? 10,000 Reasons by Matt Redman of course.
Cause He NEVER leaves you!
I can not get through this song without crying. I don’t mean a little tear down my cheek crying. I mean UNDONE crying.
This is why……
And on that day when my strength is failing
The end draws near and my time has come
Still my soul will sing Your praise unending
Ten thousand years and then forevermore
I both long for this day and I also think of my parents.
Today, alone in my living room, music loud, I worshipped.
Unadulterated worship.
I let the cleansing tears flow. The ‘ugly cry’ if you will.
While I miss my parents, my mom especially, and I am frustrated with the plans for our anniversary, He hasn’t gone anywhere.
He is right here, by my side, with His arm around my shoulder, holding me up.
And when I can no longer carry on and walk on my own from grief He carries me….
Bless the Lord, O my soul
O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
O my soul
I’ll worship Your holy nameJesus, I’ll worship Your holy name
Lord, I’ll worship Your holy nameSing like never before
O my soul
I’ll worship Your holy name
Jesus, I’ll worship Your holy name
I’ll worship Your holy name
I wanted to share this with you to encourage you.
Here I am making plans and having a pity party because my mom isn’t here….
He has a plan and it is WAY better than anything I could plan.
If you are having a hard day go crank the worship….you will be glad you did!
I feel for you. I said goodbye to child number 3 of 10 today. He leaves for a job across the country. I too am peri menopausal and some things just seem to hit hard. I listened to We Will Not Be Shaken by Building 429. It really did help. And the loss of a mother is well, a loss. It does get better. My own mom died about 9 years ago and I still feel it. God be with you.