The Phone Call I Wish I Never Answered
Is it dead of night and, as always, my brain won’t shut off and I just keep thinking.
I keep thinking about the phone call I got when my mom died. Rehashing that moment over and over.
How my first thought, as with anytime something really bad happened, I wanted to call my mom.
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so sorry. you captured the uncertainty and confusion and loss perfectly.
I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s a day I’d rather avoid too.
Thank you. It was 2 yrs ago September. Still fresh some days.
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Second cry. I can’t fathom that day. Who would I talk to three times a day? I’m so sorry. Fantastic post.
Yep. I still pick up the phone. Thanks for stopping by.
exactly…I still pick the phone up to call her
I’m so sorry. I remember making those phone calls and trying to choke out the words through my tears. The Motherless Daughters club was not one I wanted to join either, especially not this soon.
ya I was fortunate mom was 81….I was 41 I can’t imagine younger ((hugs))
I had a very similar experience when my mom died, and it was the worst thing that ever happened to me. I just remember getting the call, piling the family into the car and driving for 12 hours. Not having your mom there when you need her never feels quite right.
no fun and it’s the one moment you need her the most
Painful…heart breaking. I am sad and I have no words. Sorry for your loss…My wishes and prayers be with you.
I’m so sorry for your loss 🙁
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I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s a club I wish I didn’t have to join either. I always have trouble sleeping at night and it occurred to me recently that someday I won’t be able to text my mom when i can’t sleep. It’s heart wrenching. (We text a lot because I live overseas and it’s free that way.)
I’m so sorry for your loss. It sounds like you are grieving in a healthy way — which doesn’t mean it’s easy by any means. Just worthy of honoring your mother. Peace.
Those calls are never welcome and can make your life seem unreal. You captured the emotions perfectly.
Thank you for sharing this. So heartbreaking.
My parents are now of the age where I worry about this phone call with great regularity.
I am sorry for your loss, and thank you for your bravery in sharing it with us.
a horrible moment… I dread the call… receiving it …making it…. I hope time changes this for you…thanks for opening this one up to everyone….its a valuable piece.
It’s amazing how the practical intrudes on the emotional in times of great import – these moments that are somehow sacred, deeply personal, and yet require management of so many things. Great job capturing it.
I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s just such a shocking, numbing thing to receive news like that – especially on the phone. Suddenly you’re living with this reality that wasn’t there a minute ago and your life is changed forever. Your story is so beautifully told.