This is where I confess that I am struggling. Struggling with God and it stinks. Our last 10 months have been a roller coaster of bad.

September 19th my mom passed away
September 24th my son’s mentor died tragically in a motorcycle accident
November we left our church of 5+ years…lots of pain and it was ugly
March 10th my BFF’s son was in a motorbike accident and is paralyzed from the chest down
July 3rd The Principal’s best buddy lost his first born…3 days before the scheduled c-section unknown cause.

I want off the bad-things-happen-to-good-people rollercoaster.
I want answers!
I want to be able to tell our friends they will be ok.
But I can’t cause I am not ok.
I KNOW God works ALL things for good.
I KNOW He has plans and we don’t know them….
I KNOW these things…
I can’t FIX them.
These tragedies are out of my control and that is driving me NUTS!
I can’t put a bandaid on my boy’s hearts to ease the ache of losing their Gran and then best friend in a span of 5 days.
I can’t fix Nic….or tell his mom I’m sorry over and over and over!
I can’t bring baby Owen Baehler back so Rob can be a daddy!

I give Him all of these things and I don’t feel peace.

Pray for me will you….and share your struggles….

Mama Kautzblogging for 1This is where I confess that I am struggling. Struggling with God and it stinks. Our last 10 months have been a roller coaster of bad. September 19th my mom passed away September 24th my son's mentor died tragically in a motorcycle accident November we left our church of 5+ years...lots...Where Prepping and Wellness Meet