Where I struggle with God
This is where I confess that I am struggling. Struggling with God and it stinks. Our last 10 months have been a roller coaster of bad.
September 19th my mom passed away
September 24th my son’s mentor died tragically in a motorcycle accident
November we left our church of 5+ years…lots of pain and it was ugly
March 10th my BFF’s son was in a motorbike accident and is paralyzed from the chest down
July 3rd The Principal’s best buddy lost his first born…3 days before the scheduled c-section unknown cause.
I want off the bad-things-happen-to-good-people rollercoaster.
I want answers!
I want to be able to tell our friends they will be ok.
But I can’t cause I am not ok.
I KNOW God works ALL things for good.
I KNOW He has plans and we don’t know them….
I KNOW these things…
I can’t FIX them.
These tragedies are out of my control and that is driving me NUTS!
I can’t put a bandaid on my boy’s hearts to ease the ache of losing their Gran and then best friend in a span of 5 days.
I can’t fix Nic….or tell his mom I’m sorry over and over and over!
I can’t bring baby Owen Baehler back so Rob can be a daddy!
I give Him all of these things and I don’t feel peace.
Pray for me will you….and share your struggles….https://mamakautz.com/where-i-struggle-with-god/blogging for 1This is where I confess that I am struggling. Struggling with God and it stinks. Our last 10 months have been a roller coaster of bad. September 19th my mom passed away September 24th my son's mentor died tragically in a motorcycle accident November we left our church of 5+ years...lots...Mama Kautz firstname.lastname@example.orgAdministratorMama Kautz
Oh Katey! I’m praying for you..and I’ll say a prayer for all of them as well! That is just too much for such a small time. **hugs**
Thank you Sister!
God is big enough to let Him know you’re struggling. He’s big enough to wrestle with and ask the hard questions. He loves you all the same even when you’re struggling. Tell Him you are. Ask Him what are you supposed to do to bring glory to Him through this. Ask Him how do you add eternal value to these hard things.
I’ve been there! Hang in there.
*hug* It’s going to get better & the hurts will be out numbered by your blessings. I promise. <3
I will be praying for you! I am in the same boat–but nothing bad has happened lately. It’s just life’s culmination of confusion and chaos and ‘why me’s?’ that get to me these days. I feel ya. I even struggle with prayer and talking to God the past few days. I know he know my inner most thoughts and feelings, but I just can’t see to PRAY. I just lift my issues and thoughts to him constantly and relax in his comfort.
I have been on this roller coaster most of my life and struggle every day with God but I know deep down I cannot give up on him as life would be so much worse. I am praying for you to find some peace in your life and a full heart for God.
Praying for you.
Thank you for praying!