It’s Not About Me
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Months ago (in) Courage announced the (in) RL Conference.
I conference from your home with in-real-life people.
I decided right away I would host. I went to Meetup.com and entered all of my information.
Posted on Facebook. Both my personal page and my blog page.
The date got closer and there was only 1 RSVP and she was a maybe.
Dayspring had specials for decorations and door prizes.
Then ladies were posting on twitter the elaborate decorations they were planning on using.
So I cancelled. Less than a week before and I cancelled.
Thinking to myself “I knew I shouldn’t have decided to host.” “Hospitality isn’t my gift” “I can’t afford all of THAT!”
Then I watched the Friday webcast.
Where my friends-in-my-computer were on the screen.
Where the interviews were recored at Allume. The only blog conference I go to because the same friends that live in my computer will BE there. In real life.
I HAD to share the goodness with my in-the-flesh-friends.
So I made a phone call.
Then a few text messages.
I got the okay to use our church’s coffee shop.
Honestly. I SHOULD have done that to begin with. Not worry about numbers…”Oh if I get ‘enough’ girls we can have it there.”
I made a Facebook event less than 24 hours before.
I get my computer set up at the coffee shop.
I’m waiting patiently, chatting with God.
I’m here. All set up to share this goodness with my in-the-flesh friends. I brought chocolate.
I got nuthin’.
It’s not about me.
A friend, who had her own event going on, sits and encourages me.
She’s been right where I am.
This “I wonder if anybody will show up” place.
She says…It’s not about you.
It’s about being obedient.
He nugded me to step out of my comfort zone.
I was, however difficult it was for me, being obedient.
If I am going to follow His way for my life in the little things.
In the big things.
In the easy things.
I MUST be okay with following His way for my life in the hard-for-me things.
In ALL things.
Ultimately 3 ladies showed up.
We watched. We talked.
Did they get it?
This ‘these are my friends-in-my computer and you are my in-real-life friends.’
I don’t know.
I do know I was obedient.
Girl – I’ve been there! I too through my wrestling with God came to the conclusion that it more an act of obedience. I always want to make my life about ME ME ME!!! God says “whatever you do, do it all for an Audience of ONE!” Proud of your obedience.
Thank you, Alene….you are so encouraging!
Yes! Small is the new big – it’s about being obedient.